What is the purpose of me being here?

Slowly dying day after day,

Waiting for the abrupt moment to leave everything behind.

Wanting nothing but peace.

Knowing what we will feel when that moment arrives,

Wanting to live more than ever,

But it will be too late for all the regrets we have.

And the goodbyes and I love you's that we want to express.

For everyday is a gift that you have unknowingly taken for granted,

And when the time comes all eyes are on you or are they?

Awaiting your final destination,

In a box six feet under or the sea,

For it is too late and everthing about your life is history.

Your memory is your only existence,

And even the memories slowly or quickly fade away,

And the time you spent on this Earth, memory and existence,

Is the only thing left we have to share and it is too late for that

A perfect girl a perfect kiss
Just perfect scars across her perfect wrists
What she wanted most of all
was someone there to stop her fall
It didn’t matter how much she bled
deep inside her soul was dead
Even with her broken heart
no one knew she fell apart
I hand full of lies, a mind full of fear
now she knew, it was clear
It was time she knew it was right
it was time to say goodnight
As she pressed the blade upon her skin
the blood that ran was wearing thin
Now she’s gone left all this pain
never to return ever again.....

A sky of darkest velvet
Sweet kisses in the night
You love me in the darkeness
but forget when the world is bright.
our lips are soft and still
But in your eyes I find
A thousand words I can't explain
A strom locked in your mind.
So hold me beneath a starry sky
and weave the night into a lie
with every secret that you hide
I die a little more inside.
My head is filled with echos
Every romantic thing you've said
You tell me I can trust you
As you lay me in my bed.
Whispers on my pillow
A hidden thought you keep
Something you won't tell me
An answer that I seek.
Kiss the questions from my lips
I can taste all of your lies
Can you feel the pain I hold,
beneath every pleasured sigh?
You tell me that you love me
As my nails run down your spine
It's too dark to see your eyes
But I know this lie is mine.
You hold me in the darkness
As you finally fall asleep
I've found the thing you hide
What you've buried away so deep.
You love me when it's nighttime
When you can't see my face
Because if you can't see me
I'm just another girl you can erase.

No questions left to answer
No problems left to solve
The answer is simple
One fast move and it's done
No more pain
No more grief
One last decision
How will it go
No more heartache
No more burdens to impose
For the answer to my prayers
Death to be gone and done
One last request
For the angel of death
Don't take too long
Come to me soon
My prayers need answered
And you are the one
Come and go
Taking my last breath
For you are the angel of death

When I cut, it is as deep as my pain
confused
shattering
I am devilish and cruel
think in your perpetual dead reason.
the normals all hate me for they are fools
i wish only to taste the sweet, sweet sanguine
Eyes closed for the final time, the soul released
intoxicated with blood
i have nothing to give anymore

A shortened path
or a long busy road
if she takes the path
she lives a short life
if she takes the road
she’s flattened and crushed
either way
what life will she have

Dogs chasing her coming to a short tree
or a thin tall tree
if she climbs the tall tree
she fall and break her neck and die
if she climbs the short one
the dogs will jump
and tare her down
and she will die
either way
what life will she have

Going with the killer
or going with herself
if she goes to the killer
she dies from him
if she goes with herself
she will cause
her own suicidal death
either way
what life will she have

She won’t live to see the light
see wont live to see another day
trap in darkness
trap by her own world
a life born to go to waste

D-desperately waiting to die
E-ecstatic at the sight of the knife
A-always in a face filled with tears
T-the arm that trickles blood
H-hating life

I press the razor to my wrist,
Close my eyes, make one last wish,
I cut my wrist nice and quick
As my blood runs red and thick
I watch the blood it won't stop
I watch the blood as it drops
I watch until I slowly fall
I hear a scream from down the hall.
I lay there as
I slowly die
Once I'm gone you wonder why.

The face of an angel is all that is here.
One beautiful freckle equals one terrified tear.
Not ready to leave, but has to go.

Wants to turn back but God says no.
Leaving life is a scary thought just for love.
I guess it's something that can’t be fought.

A mother, a father, a sister, and friends, a
meaningful life that suddenly ends.
An angel was what she was meant to be.

Now just think of all she can see looking over her
lover night, and day saying "I love you" in her own special way.

In the night we sleep, and in the day we cry.
She watches us all in her star in the sky.

Don't look into my eyes

there is only silence

Don't look into my mind

there is only blankness

Don't look into my heart

there is only anger

Don't look into my soul

there is only darkness

Don't look into my hand

there are only scars

Don't look into my smile

there is only coldness

In my darkness hour
I called for you
cried out in anguishtormented and confused

you never came, why I didn't know
we met only a short time ago
saw you in the shadows as the night grew near
you sensed my heart beating rapidly in fear

I didn't understand what or who you were
didn't realize what your motives were
then you touched me and slowly turned me to you
I gazed into your eyes, and then I knew

My Angel of Darkness had found me now
together we would live eternally bound
we would feed together and hunt as one
rule the darkness and allow only chosen ones

Suddenly you turned and walked away
couldn't look at me, no words did you say
you disappeared back into the nigh
tleft me alone after taking my life

You gave me darkness to feast alone
turned me into a creature others scorned
I knew nothing about your world
now condemned to eternity alone

i am the definition af deranged

i am a tortuered soul wandering amongst ruins

twisted memories fading in the background

the things i have done, the lives i have ruined......

i am the infestation known as pain

i am the cross on which jesus was hung

condemed for longer that eternity

i wither and burn, screaming 'midst the flames......